Monday, November 21, 2011

Onward!

I had my first shower in a few days, including my first shampoo since my initial sinus surgery. Showers are currently quite tricky. I have to find a window of time when I am not receiving something through my lines. We have to wrap the PICC line in plastic and cover the site from which the Hickman was removed. (I can't see it, but everyone who looks at the infected Hickman site says it looks terrible.) And I have a mustache of gauze under my nose. I was so preoccupied with keeping various dressings dry and keeping the gauze mustache in place with one hand while dispensing and applying shampoo with the other hand that I was halfway through my shower before I realized I still had my glasses on.

I just heard that my chemo (clofarabine) is starting today. That's good! This means I have navigated not only the infection challenge but also the scheduling challenge of aligning treatment dates with biopsy dates, transplant dates, and the schedules of other transplant patients. I'm not the only patient preparing for a transplant, some key staff do not work on weekends, and there are limits to how many patients can be processed on a given day. Anyway, it's working out.

So, starting today, five days of chemo, seven days of recovery, biopsy... then, with the right biopsy results, more chemo, and then a transplant. Last Tuesday, when we learned that the leukemia had survived the October chemo treatment, was a rough day. Since then, everything has broken the right way.

Perhaps this turn of fortune is due to the flood of support coming my way. Cards and emails (often with humorous links — gotta keep laughing) and positive thoughts and prayers from all over, a complete set of "Frasier" episodes, work parties and meals at my house... 

The most unexpected support, and almost certainly the largest in terms of the number of prayers, comes from the Swat Valley in Pakistan. If that location sounds familiar to you, it's most likely because the Swat Valley is the site of frequent U.S. drone attacks against suspected Taliban. It's also the home of a woman who is part of an English conversation group that my mother hosts for immigrants. So, five times a day, this woman's very large extended family prays to Allah for my health. (This gives me prayer coverage in all three Abrahamic religions.)

As a friend from high school commented recently, even a narrow path can get you where you need to go. Onward!

11 comments:

  1. That's so awesome that you're getting prayer coverage all the way from Pakistan.

    If all you had on in the shower was your glasses, you're still doing better than I did once - stepping into the shower with all my clothes on. I managed to recognize there was something wrong with 'the picture' before getting my clothes wet, but still - .

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  2. Hi Joe: Let me add my positive thoughts from Beijing! (I'm a friend of Karl's from grad school, currently at the tail end of 5 months here doing climate economics research.)

    If you're looking for fun videos to watch, I'll be immodest enough to suggest some of my China video blogs, which you can get at standupeconomist.com. (You can also see some economics comedy videos there if you're into that sort of thing :).

    And just FYI, I'm sure you'd have more positive vibes coming from China, but your blog is blocked by the Great Firewall. (It's not you, it's all of blogspot. But I have a VPN service that sometimes allows me through.) So... plus one for Pakistan!

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  3. Dear Joe,
    All of the Bolkers are thinking of you, reading your blog, and then, this oddity:

    I have two friends, one who used to be a nun (she prayed for Ben when he was in utero, and it looked like he wasn't going to make it to become a baby...she did a very good job--we visited him in Canada this weekend...), the other a friend of 50 plus years who was one of the first women ordained in the Anglican Church. She now lives in Ireland, and we write to each other often. I asked if she might pray for you (this, coming from me, the ultimate agnostic) and she said, "Of course!"

    So, we think your very wide prayer circle is working (not to speak of your miraculous
    sense of humor).

    We think of you every day.
    Joan

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  4. Hi Joe,
    Great to read your blog today, so happy to hear that things are moving in the right direction. You're covered in New York in terms of prayers and good thoughts!
    Susie Rogers Leyden

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  5. (A few seasonal chuckles from your nephews ...)

    Uncle Joe,

    What happened when the turkey got into a fight?
    He got the stuffing knocked out of him.

    Why did Johnny get such bad grades after Thanksgiving?
    Because everything is marked down after the holidays.

    What sound does a space turkey make?
    Hubble, hubble, hubble!

    Why did the man invest in feathers?
    He heard the stock market was going down.

    Happy Thanksgiving!

    love,
    Ben & Garrett

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  6. Joe.........

    on my daily walks to the ocean with my golden retriever Sedona.....I think about the red rocks, the mighty power of the ocean and the great strength of prayer and the human spirit
    ...you are in my thoughts daily...and hi to Mara:)

    Jessie

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  7. so i am embarrassed to say that i have just landed on your blog after all this time, but so glad that i have finally used my archiac, non-existent computer skills to surpass the word processing and find a blog! i am hopeful that the new chemo treatment provides the advances to you akin to the new computer advances i just learned!

    on a serious note as the holiday nears, i hope that you and the family can spend some joyous moments together, even if it is in a hospital room and appreciate what a great family you are.

    we will be thinking of you here in New York and sending lots of positive vibes. big hugs and love sally

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  8. Joe-
    All of the runners in Lexington, MA wish you the best. Your spirit is an inspiration to us all. Your blog is the best I have have read. (Okay, it is the only blog I have ever read but it is still great.) Say hi to Jan and the family.

    Warren

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  9. Sounds like you're covered worldwide, Joe! And did you see that 6 degrees of separation is now only 4.7? I'll just bet you're a 4 by now!

    I assume you'll have a Thanksgiving feast when this is all over. In the meantime, give thanks for what you can, and we know that's a lot!

    Julia

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  10. Joe,
    Tomorrow over Thanksgiving dinner, I will be sure to give thanks for your doctors and other caregivers; your donor, Mara; the continued sense of humor shown in your blog (that nearly always makes me chuckle out loud)and the friendship you, Jan, and Paul have offered my family. Janelle

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  11. Hey Joe -

    It's not 5 times a day, and it's not the SWAT valley, buy now you will also have prayer coverage from Temple B'Nai Brith in Somerville - you're name is going to be on the list of people who are prayed for at the end of the service. In case you were wondering, I haven't been indiscrimitely canvassing for additional prayer coverage for you. I was just talking with someone at work whose husband is very active at the temple, and she asked if she could put your name on the list. I thought you would be cool with that.

    Love,

    ~mara

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